Loosing my Family house & Animals

Today has been nothing but bad news. That is how the wind sails in my life. It can be calm and beautiful but that usually lasts as long as a day then nothing but storm after storm batters the haul.

I found out that my family is loosing the house to foreclosure. My family house. My childhood. My entire childhood. On top of that.... where my parents are going they can only take 2 cats. We have 4 cats and 2 dogs. No one will take the dogs because they're too big. Spirit is a wolf hybrid and Koda is a husky/wolf hybrid mix. They are our babies. They are my life. They are our family. I am crushed and destroyed. Nothing can prepare you for the worst. I could sense it on the horizon but I turned a blind eye in hopes that some mercy could be given and that everything would be ok. But alas, it is not. Another hard page to turn in the book of life and one I'm not sure I can turn now. My dad says we should put Koda up for adoption and if we can't figure out a solution before then, we will have no choice. My family is homeless. Spirit is far to old and she can't go to any one else. She is a pack dog. She literally cannot go to another house or be adopted. I worry if we split them up, Spirit will not last through this ordeal. She will be to stressed because her "packmate" would be gone. Whenever he is not around she howls and howls. The sadness that radiates throughout her voice brings tears to your eyes and ushers you to reunite them as soon as possible.  I also have to think about what to do with my horse as well as she is boarded with my family's. If I can't get the money to bring her here then I will have to sell her as well....



We tried everything in our power to save the house. My sister took up two jobs and had the money for the down payment but the bank doesn't give two craps if they're throwing anyone on the streets. They just want their money. It infuriates me to no end that there is absolutely NO compassion what so ever. We where talking with lenders and realtors in desperation to try and save the house. They don't care. They just want their money. More money is better so they went with the man who offered it up.  

I am so broken right now. I am so lost right now. It feels as though my world is being ripped by either side.  There truly is no words that can describe or do justice to how I feel at his current moment. I am the most understanding and patient person to know but how do you bounce back from this? How do you tell yourself it will be alright in the very end? How do you not loose perspective on whats important when your family is going to be homeless and you're going to loose your animals?

Just..... Why.....

To add insult to injury... my parents car was stolen last night. Luckily, it was found down the street ... but its damaged....